已经好久好久没真正的对自己好。

对上一次的blog， 应该是将近十年了。。。

如果有一天我老了失忆了， 我想说 今天- 三月二日。2023 年 “已经当妈了，女儿名叫 芯语 ” - 这确实是我人生的一项大 achievement 比结婚还大

其余的都是陪衬品吧！

谢谢老天对我的眷顾， 给了我一位可爱健康的小宝贝 “应该无悔” 了

中秋， 八月十五， 多云

突然好想 “三婆” 一位我很尊敬的前辈。

每年的农历八月十五，中秋节，都不忘我们的聚会。从我懂事以来都不曾忘记。

我会永远都牢牢记住。

我的家人还是最棒，没人能取代。。。

“轻轻的祝您们，我最亲爱的家人中秋快乐，人月两团原”

雨天，好音乐的陪同下

好久好久都没登入这我曾经陪我成长的小小空间
可以让我述说我的喜怒哀乐

今晚，心血来潮。。。好吧 就 “敲敲门” says 一声 “您好， 我回来啦”

1/2 of 2012

MY dearly BLog...
Life has been doing good for me. guess...Could be better still  :D

Started with 2 jobs it's definitely not as easy, sometimes I'm really exhausted but I'm holding on and absolutely believe that it's all worth. Thus, should stay focus more... Real focus...
As climbing up the corporate mountain, now mind needs to work a harder,probably good to start by asking the questions such as:- 

Which level am I at this current stage? :D


LOOKING back... when dilemma happened. Frankly, there is no idea whether my heart can still be rely on or whether can still be trust ever since then. Anyhow, I have made up my mind that "YES, I'M HEADING THERE" at least

"BEEN THERE & DONE THAT". 

Over the Easter Weekend! Humpty-dumpty rolling page

... "Happy belated Easter Day!" had a good weekend indeed...

While some of the places is celebrating the good Friday &  the long weekend, something embarrassed but funny happened...to me! My facial expression changed when i saw this picture,  +.^"

WHY?

Strike on the Easter, I fall down and rolling like an egg from stairs. Luckily, someone huge is blocking me to roll further & with some back followers with immediate support. It eventually stop me from rolling. "Thank Guys!" phew!!! i knew you guys sweating =.=" 

This picture has brought back the actual scene... lol

With this, it has wrapped up my Easter day with a lil gift on my knee.

Any no. "meaningful" to YOU?

Was enjoying my reading by holding my drug in cup... "grrrrrrr" a Vibration on my blackberry & it was the message from some promotion. Anyway, this one has caught my attention quite a bit with my eyeball expand to the max & wonder why such a message appeared. "ah ah  no...no.." not the alcohol, pubs, fashion promo BUT an interested one...

aLil about 2011

Last & Dec 2010

GoodBye 2010

What have been done in the 2010?

As flipping over my table calendar, I actually start review back what i have done for the entire year. They are something that I’ve achieved on my 2010 bucket and at the same time something that I have remove from the bucket.

I will said that I have an off balance year.

Is worry, worried about the time flies, worried about uncertainty throughout the year? Second by second, minute goes by minute but I feel myself is not moving at all. People around me tried so many ways to kick, move and walk me through & get me out from the hell I’ve face but still... “Stubborn with hopes” this is killing. Everything, I will only focus may be 70% and the rest... NONESENCE may be! Anyway a lesson stills a lesson, it has been arranged in fate for me to go through all this and perhaps sharpen me to be stronger person, I guess!

Refreshed back, I’m so glad that God has arranged so many of the representatives to save me from suffer which almost made me mad & psycho.  I’ve got some of the very supportive friends stayed with me from the very beginning of the year due to the sorrow time I have had.

You guys and gals should know who you are and I am so thankful that you all walk me out of the maze.  All the trips & talk we had.

Let me officially announce that I am Alright & Perfectly fine!

“Thank you for all your love, I love all of you too...xox!”

Again, it’s time to refill the empty bucket I have, hope this year I can make it for my diving again but SKY Diving & Bungee Jump. (before getting too old for the extreme game) J

Promised to work as balance & hard, will never stop believing especially myself.  Due to the changes and the transition period is happened, perhaps is good for me to growth & see things in different angle.  Work for the best, full force loaded.

2011 Revolution List will be revealed very soon in the next blog...

"Happy New Year and may the Rabbit year hoop in with great health, wealth, & all the Goodwills in 2011!!!"

... Interesting ...

 It's a lovely start!

with a memo stick deliver short messages can be common

however it's simple & eventually this clip brought me smile... 

Simply Sweet!

~ the guy looks cute too ~

when it happened & it starts changing

"Timing"...when the right one comes and it changed...

; by now the so called predominate master would love & feel free to have this happy ending and yes ...is finally... 

Making a step to walk out the door is extremely pain for her; there is a lot of courage needed... She tried, holding hard & to safe the relationship for months...months by walking through the sorrowful path all by herself -  to understand, accept, appreciate what God has arrange for her especially with the grievous wound she’s experiencing. During that very moment, no one can understand how deep the wound cut but only her own. No matter how bad it hurts or depressed, she still never stop believing that the feeling they been through was honest - the lovely moments & its truth ~ they were in Love! She never feel disappointed not even regretted for their past, continue to be supportive, strong, independent and focus in order to balance the square he mentioned. She’s been through the hardest times ever to accept all these happened. She felt suffering - not eating, not sleeping, feeling sorrow & isolated herself by just crying, come to a point that she wanted to end her life& feeling so depressed & negative. She used to drive with tears, walked down the street with miserable face & tears, things or venue they’ve been before will ended up attack her with soreness tears, is just out of control, wonder is this called: “heartbreak”. Friends around telling her to be strong and tell her that everyone been through this kinda pain, it's just part of our life, she can deserve someone better. "He doesn't love you anymore or even at all" so just move on...MOVE ON!!!

“…spent 2 hours sitting in front of lappie, staring at the inbox can’t even reply a word…

“…forcing by colleagues & friend to eat some food…& rest…due to the red popping eyes”

“…celebrating some seasonal occasion alone…”

“…felt tonne of knifes break-through her heart then cut into pieces…used to swim alone & stayed under the water as long as she can hold her breath”

“…went for gym, classes, sport or even get some drinks just to make her tired & sleep without taking the sleeping pills…”

She tried to understand, learned, filled her schedule packed with all the activities just to re-act & accepts the friendship between them…

~ Summer breeze; brought the cupid love back near them again feeling of cherish in the air…
Month in & out… she never thought this will happened for them. “Sweet memories, sharing, laugher, hugging…back to them” during this “in love” moment, a lot of promises made & shared about the things happened for the past few months when they apart… Summer cupid love has pulled them close and is almost…they are just completely comfortable to share everything together, calling each other “Darling”. However, fear in them has just hold them back for moving forward even a single step. This feeling doesn’t last long, perhaps something more important has caught his attention after all.
Again, these caused disappointment - on her birthday month, trip, dinner, promises he has made during the summer. As she starts to recall, the disappointment of all promises has started year ago HK trip, forgot her birthday while she standing right in front of him because he was chatting on a hammock with another her, a promise message from delivery card “to celebrate every of her birthday together for her entire life” & the interesting part is all are empty promises.

No matter what happened, she accept and will still be supportive to him no matter what happened to him. Whenever things happened to him, when he needs her she will be there for him.
.
Because she love him.

. her mind starts to workout consciously by looking at the facts & all the empty promises happened. She decided to accept all his excuses by taking it easily.
.
When “lies” in place.
 .
With forget & forgive…The girl accepts & stop to bang her head to the wall over and over again, she believes in faith, & HIM.
 
“Cheated” - for her this is unacceptable, especially from the one she loves.
. a big slap on face & woke her up by telling her the facts. Yes, her heartbreak into pieces & has fly away like dusts. She doesn’t want to hate him because she loves.

.END. She made a very brave move at last because she knows she can’t hold back anymore, she knows that he doesn’t love her from the very beginning. She deserve better and she needs to have peace of mind to focus, letting him go is painful but wanting him to be happy and successful is what she wants and wish to see. Loving him but she never regret

.she started with her 30 days…& wrote this:-

“I’m sorry! Please forgive me with my selfishness! Timing is the keys, I can’t balance anymore, thank you for giving me so much of SWEET memories, love you! ”

never stop believing,

DDP

Lunar Calendar

Chinese believes Lunar 7th month - Hungry Ghost month... 

I think I may be one of the hungry ghost, wonder why am I always craving with Donutsssssss lately. 

I used to have donuts every fortnight during those days until I can't see donuts anymore else I will "puke"... & I just STOPPED taking donut but now the crave seem is back... hahaha.

 


"give me give me... my sugar ...mocha donut  & coffee" 


 

 Donut donut donut & DONUTSSSSSSSS!!! plz

Breakfast, Lunch, Tea or Snacks... ok >.<



 Other than hungry ghost's month & donuts... there are this thorny thingy I have crave with... "bingo" 
             "teng teng teng" ~ Durian King... yummy yummy I am the QUEEN ~~

Durian King  =.=" cant resists

Deep down in ME

Feeling that I catched a cold again.... Deep down inside me cold...empty...lonely and sad...

I really wish to write something on my blog lately but most of the blog which suppose to be publish are still in draft. Too much to tell and I can't even concentrate to write... not even to complete one. This is just too sad...
"The Past" still flashing in my mind and I promised to overcome this. I am really so tired to deal with the emotion.  I am definitely need to have a peace... cause I know I am still in pain... especially to deal with "lies"
I am full of dissappointment...worrying, concerning, but still I must let go for my own good...
Chosen to love in different way.... still in love...& learn to at least love myself too. 

It's the month for Cancerian

Until this being mentioned lately... only then I realized he has put in so much efforts to understand the characteristic of Cancerian; could be the tactics but yes he spent times just to may be put me in as the "bait"?

To understand myself better and I read this... lately too after our conversation....

" Cancer individual is a deeply emotional person inside, but is smooth and confident on the outside." 

Well, I will say that this is just some guides of characteristic and not 100% reliable or accurate to judge someone by this. 

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"VP" the Princess born in July 26 yrs ago, thank you for the love couple who raised me up!
"Dad & Mum, thank you for giving me the best you can and brought me 2 siblings. All I wish is my family stay happily and healthy forever. "

"I feel grateful that I've all of you beside me!"

Never thought of celebrating my big day at all perhaps is aging. However, I still missing the past birthday celebration especially the one stuffed with "kobe beef" & wines... end up with puke :)...what a waste.

2010... Birthday blush...

Dinner, Flowers delivered, cup cakes, CD, Food, alcohol - flaming/vodka (limited edition- Sex In the City), Birthday gifts & Birthday's calls, sms, email, cards and etc...

"Thank you all my dear friends... hugzzz..."

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Delayed Post

" 1st " achievement from the list in 2010

1st breath under the sea ... 
Oh yeah! I got it ... "Open Water Diving" license... 

How it's feel??? 

It's just feeling " alright..."

"THE FIRST ACHIEVEMENT FROM MY 2010 LIST ~ Scuba Diving "

Was having so much fun for the diving trip, traveled with 3 pairs of couples & PLUS with A Business CLASS ... served with chips, drinks, ready with 2 feather pillows & blanket. 

"Thanks Mr Shim & Agnes (Driver)"

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Well, is ALL ABOUT my SCUBA Diving lessons NOW,

Des (Dive Master) & King (Dive Master)

Day 1

Had a quick introduction with the equipments & head down to 9 - 10 meters depth sea water for skills learning.  Was very Nervous but excited with the very first few breath. The compressed "AIR" is just different as in when we inhale, you can feel that your throat is just so dry but it's normal. After done with the first confine water skills training & leisure time.... 

Attended class after dinner which conducted by our cool Dive Master.

Day 2

Is a RAINY day... cold but still we head down to the water  for the 2nd set of the confine water learn for the skills. Due to the heavy rain we gonna cross the river & head down to the swimming pool.  3rd confine water we back in the sea again as the rains stop finally. But weather was so COLD still.

hoooorayyyyyy!!!

Day 3~ OPEN WATER  1, 2 & 3
Today is the DAY...

Depth not less than 18 meters...

I was buddy with DM & we saw SHARK... Black Tip SHARK ,  swim across & just right in front of me... ABOUT 4-5 feets long. Perhaps is normal for other divers to see this but I'm just excited to swim with those fishies & moreover SHARK. HAHA ;)

there are just too much too mention during the diving trip especially the laughter we have share & ;

SKILLS like

Equalization, Buoyancy, equipments - "AIR" tank instead of "GAS" tank... ;) Back-roll, various types of marine life,  Mask remove, & etc...

Looking forward to gear up again...

What do you think? isn't that funny?

Was heading Singapore again for day trip just to attend a cocktail event... 

This is something that I simply just simply wanted to mention here for the sake of "fun". 

....Schedule started: Woke up at 5am and headed to the airport at 6am and departed from LCCT @ 7.45am... Everyone was in half awake mode &....

50 minutes later... In "Singa" city...

Past through the immigration & someone who just walked "right" behind of me missing in action... with the reason... 

"Oh, really? You are just in front of me? Sorry, I can see you! & I went to Terminal Two & only realized I lost you all!"

OMG... Firstly, I am wearing a RED... RED Dress...

Nah.... have a look at the picture below:-
JennyGaga & ME (in RED) 

Here you go for:

Baby "t" boy physical description

" He was super-duper blur, 6 feet" 2 tall , with suit (look pretty smart). However, he talked like baby boy & asked funny questions. I know he is hardworking, imaginative & enthusiasm at work but like JennyGaga said:-

 "his mind like peanuts brain...."

hahaha...

Well, come back to the event...

Had so much fun for the day trip although is tiring, the event was "Awesome" served with my favorite champagne...

everyone were well dressed up... included:-

"HIM"

 Boss ak :)

The ladies say Cheers!

1st Of May ~ Shocked!!!

Last day of April, decided to have some wine at home & watching some old series in bed, it was so relaxing... Surprise that I can finished a bottle of wine by myself.

...over the weekend... 

Spring / Summer~April...10

"here it come... end of April..."

What's in April?
Wedding bell rang for the lovely babe finally... although no fireworks but was touching...

erm... & ...
My "F1" @ Grand Stand... & "SHE" is back!!!

 here we are... "stylish babes"

Stylo... stylo...

 ... finally ~shooting session ... 

 >> ... during this shoot, photographers were so worried I will fall off  to the staircase beside me ...
I think with the zebra skin prints high heels will be better   << 
" I will try to stand on this if there is a chance next time...I promise..."

like this shoot too...to me it makes me feel I gonna think twice before I make a move with every single step... Especially in Life!

 roof top... I like the sun...yeah~~ I can feel the heat... "

like the sunshine throughout the glass on the roof ~ feel with hopes

"Like the Black & White better...."

>> "250309>> 250310"...

As time passes by...
Can't believe that on the same old day I'm experiencing the system issues. The only different is I'm handling and solving this instead of traveling. It's remind me that on the same date last year I'm heading for the adventurous & warm family trip with DDP. Most importantly, the Mount KK climbing & islands hoping trip with the lovely old couple and the 2 little girls.
Climbing trip was the tough one for me... without the encouragement I think I can never make it to the top. Is a great experience we had and it has feed the purpose for celebrating the 29th , we made it before his 30th and on his birthday.

year later... 2010...

what's next?... :)

...activities...

"... movie that impressed me, a surprise call, thoughts sharing, songs & the lyric, fireworks, feeling, weekend & etc..."

St.Patrick's day, Night out, Karaoke & Hot air balloon fiesta... especially the lost & found princess during fiesta